A Personal Journal

161 The Attempt and temptation

In Depression, Suicide, death on October 30, 2007 at 6:33 pm

You might ought not listen to this one. I wasn’t to up for this podcast. Total running time: 20 minutes 49 seconds (Stereo) MP3.

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  1. Hope that things are better by now. Keep your chin up and remember that things that depress you will go away.

    There are folks out there that care,

    Your Nashville Friend

    Thom...Your Nashville Friend 30 October 2007 at 8pm

  2. I’m sorry if our chats put you in such a funk.
    Again, I stressed, I applaud your honesty, and I really appreciate your sharing. It’s very big of you to do so.
    I’d be more than happy to chat with you about relationship if you’d like to talk about it.
    I don’t know it all, but certainly do have some to share about my own experience.
    I’d be more than glad to talk to you on your show, or on mine. Whatever you like.
    The clouds would clear eventually. Hang in there.

    John Ong 31 October 2007 at 10am

  3. You do not always talk about sex. You talk about life. I listen to your podcast because you say things I need to hear. Like how you deal with things. One day at a time. See, I know that. But I often get ahead of myself. You remind me how to get through my own life by talking about how you get through yours.

    You must continue to live. For every person whose life ended too soon. For accident victims. For Holocaust victims. For people who didn’t have the choice whether to live or die, and for you yourself, to wait and see what this world will bring to you…what good surprises might be in store. Just don’t give up. Keep trying. And keep talking about your life to help some of us get through ours, those of us who can’t talk about our lives.

    Thanks for being there.

    A listener. 31 October 2007 at 2pm

  4. Nick

    I’m listening, I hear what you’re saying and I truly understand the pain you feel….as do many of your listeners out here. Were you to go I would miss you immensely ……..you have become too much a part of our lives for it to be otherwise.

    Like you I don’t really do optimism; but, sure as dammit, nothing lasts forever – not even the silence or the solitude.

    ~ Paul.

    Paul_in_London 31 October 2007 at 4pm

  5. Nick, you have a sexy country voice. I’ve struggled as a black gay man for years. I’ve struggled in America and see that its all a pain in the ass; learning the bad for good etc. See beyond your current situation. I’m 43 yrs never been in love. I’m still waiting to meet a nice guy. I see a lot of cute guys in Boston single wanting more than a one nite stand. Gay men want a strong man emotionally and physically. Hard work and pain helps you gain.

    Anthony 1 November 2007 at 2am

  6. Nick

    I have to say that this was a tough episode to listen to because of the pain you are having in your life – believe me when I say this I have been there done that and many times where the depression gets really bad. Things will improve and you are a smart man and you deserve to be happy.

    I read this the other day and it truly fits – don’t let yesterday use up today – you need to live in the now rather than looking at the past – there is nothing you can do about that but there is plenty you can do in the future.

    I had the same feelings with my LTR ended in a horrible way and it took two years before I had the courage to get myself out there and meet new people – then I met Joe and he has been a wonderful joy to my life. If you truly want to find love you can but you have to understand that you have to really want to be with someone and not have all the conditions that the partner must go by while you get to do whatever you want. Relationships no matter what kind can’t survive if only one is willing to do their share.

    Ramble Redhead 8 February 2008 at 6pm